Whenever i post, it just means i'm FUCKING UPSET. :( First, School assessment is here. N loads of work is making me want to die. Secondly, the friend that i used to thrust her, n liked her as a fren a lot, did such a thing to me. It really hurts me a lot. It's just that i don't show it at all. N now here i'm typing this blog, means i'm on the verge of breaking down. This thing really hurts me a lot. N makes me struggle. Wad i need now is a hug, a hug from someone who meant to me a lot, n tell me "Everything is gonna be fine, it's just a nightmare". I value friendship a lot, n friends are doing this to me. N what's worst, when i want to take up my phone n call one friend whom i reali want to talk to, she told me she is eating with her boyfriend now. Call her later?? I dunno if i'm thinking too much. Seems like wadever energy i spent on a particular friend i liked a lot, has gone to waste. I'm typing with tears over here. I wonder if anyone could see this post anywhere. I dun care. I just want this thing to end. Please. Thanks you.

Hurtful. But i know it won't heal. Even it is, there will be an ugly scar. It always will be.Forever. To haunt you up and down. I feel down and feel like crying now. Cos i dun think much people understands me. I think too much always. I give in too much always, but i ended up Hurt always. God, please dun let this happen again?? Please. I'm scared. I'm scared of losing someone i cared for. In the speed things are, i think i will change one day. To a very different person that others will know~ THanks. I dun want to be human in my next life~