I've changed.

This 3 years i think i"ve changed. From a silly and naive thinking person, to what they call soft hearted person. This time, I've really change. How do i change?? Perhaps, it's because i grew older.:p Alright, the only reason i've changed, it's just because of my surroundings. That's all. No more to tell . :X Signing OFF!!!! :)

Whenever i post, it just means i'm FUCKING UPSET. :( First, School assessment is here. N loads of work is making me want to die. Secondly, the friend that i used to thrust her, n liked her as a fren a lot, did such a thing to me. It really hurts me a lot. It's just that i don't show it at all. N now here i'm typing this blog, means i'm on the verge of breaking down. This thing really hurts me a lot. N makes me struggle. Wad i need now is a hug, a hug from someone who meant to me a lot, n tell me "Everything is gonna be fine, it's just a nightmare". I value friendship a lot, n friends are doing this to me. N what's worst, when i want to take up my phone n call one friend whom i reali want to talk to, she told me she is eating with her boyfriend now. Call her later?? I dunno if i'm thinking too much. Seems like wadever energy i spent on a particular friend i liked a lot, has gone to waste. I'm typing with tears over here. I wonder if anyone could see this post anywhere. I dun care. I just want this thing to end. Please. Thanks you.

Hurtful. But i know it won't heal. Even it is, there will be an ugly scar. It always will be.Forever. To haunt you up and down. I feel down and feel like crying now. Cos i dun think much people understands me. I think too much always. I give in too much always, but i ended up Hurt always. God, please dun let this happen again?? Please. I'm scared. I'm scared of losing someone i cared for. In the speed things are, i think i will change one day. To a very different person that others will know~ THanks. I dun want to be human in my next life~

20th March.

Fruitful day today. Went to charmaine's house to stay overnight with huiwen. The three of us went to school early in the morning like some zombies. Wahahahaha!!!!!!!!! Saying till digital class... a total waste of time. Say presentation, No presentation, all day long just discussing about concepts and nothing else... wahaha!!! =) After that we went to pasir ris together with huiwen to accompany her to the childcare to work as student assistant. What a tiring day~~ :)